The quest to be thin.....maybe just thinner

I have been over weight for most of my life.


The degree of how over weight has varied from a little to obese. I've had skinny times too. Like after breaking up with a boyfriend or when I was living on my own and didn't have enough money to buy food. It's funny because I didn't even enjoy the times I was skinny because I was never comfortable in my own body.

My body has done a lot for me. It has birth 2 beautiful healthy children. So I can't be too hard on it but I would like to feel good it it. My quest is not to be skinny. I want to be thinner and and feel good in my body.


I have tried a lot of the diet out there with varying degrees of success. I lost about 50lbs with Weight Watchers a couple years back but gained it all back after my wedding. I've tried to do it again since then but have failed repeatedly.

A couple weeks ago I came across the book "I Can Make You Thin" by Paul McKeena. I decided to pick it up and thought to my self "What do I have to lose?" The basis of it is that you reprogram your mind to help you lose weight. Using hypnosis and changing the way you think about things.

His program has 4 simple rules:
1. When you are Hungry, Eat
2. Eat What You Want, Not What You Think You Should
3. Eat Consciously And Enjoy Every Mouthful
4. When You Think You Are Full, Stop Eating

Sounds too easy doesn't it? When I first read it that's what I thought too. After I thought about it for a while I realised I don't do any of those things.

1. I never eat when I'm hungry because I am trying to be "good" Then I binge later
2. I try to eat stuff that is "good" for me but then turn around and eat crap later to reward myself for being "good".
3. I eat so fast that I don't enjoy it at all and sometimes don't even remember I ate.
4. Full? What is that? I am always either starving or stuffed.

There is more to the program like listening to the hypnosis CD everyday and mind re-framing exercises but I will get into to that more later.

I have two reasons for deciding to blog about my journey. I want a outlet to put down my thoughts and the other reason was when I researched about other people following this plan I didn't come up with much except what was on Mr. McKenna's website and I wanted something unbiased.

So for all you people wondering if Paul McKenna can really make you thin, stay tuned :)

I'm on day number 4 and I feel good.